The reality star said that surrogacy has actually been a harder route.

By Stephanie Petit
November 15, 2017

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 may have had two difficult pregnancies with son , 2 next month, and daughter , 4, but she isn’t a big fan of turning to .

The 37-year-old reality star, who is with husband , told  that surrogacy has actually been a harder route.

“You know, it is really different,” said Kardashian West. “Anyone that says or thinks it is just the easy way out is just completely wrong. I think it is so much harder to , because you are not really in control.”

“Obviously you completely trust and that you have a good bond and relationship with, but it is still … knowing that I was able to carry my first two babies and not my baby now, it’s hard for me,” she adds. “It’s definitely a harder experience than I anticipated just in the control area.”

In April, Kardashian West revealed that doctors had advised her that  any more children. (She suffered  during both of her pregnancies.)

“I hated being pregnant … I thought this was going to be so easy, but you know, even in how much I hated it, if I could do it myself I would have preferred that,” the  star tells ET.

She explains, “So that inner struggle is kind of hard, but I am just rolling with it and it is what it is.”

Although Kardashian West knows she and West, 40, are lucky to , the process of getting ready for the baby is not the same as when she was pregnant.

“I think it is definitely a different experience and I am blessed that I , and technology is the way that it is that we can do this,” she explains.

“But it is still a process that you need to digest,” adds the star. “Even the fact that it is happening — and you do forget sometimes — because I think , by the time you have the baby, you are so prepared and so ready, and now I am just like, ‘Oh my God, I am going to freak out because I’m not ready and I’m not prepared,’ but it’ll just all [fall] into place.”

Over the weekend, the third-time mom-to-be threw a  filled with cherry blossoms. North was also on hand for the celebration — and her mom made sure that even her daughter’s pink ensemble matched the theme of the evening.

“They are excited,” Kardashian West tells ET ‘s anticipation of their new sibling. “I don’t know if they don’t feel it as much because they don’t see my big belly and probably hear me complaining every two seconds.”

“But we do talk about it a lot, so I think they are really excited,” she continues. “I don’t know how [Saint] is going to react because he doesn’t get it yet, is really excited.”